THE FISH

 This story makes me cry every time I think about it, but then I cry easy.  I’ve never been ashamed to cry when I encountered a happy or a sad circumstance.  If someone laughed at me I just figured they hadn’t experienced that particular circumstance, or were to macho to show their emotions.  I felt sorry for them and hoped they would mature soon.

I was about five years old when one of the most significant events in my life happened to me. My father being a welder and mechanic for Blue Diamond building materials only had a two week vacation each year and we spent it camping at a beach close to home in San Diego County, California.

There was no campground, just a beach and some cliffs that would shield us from the north wind that blew most every afternoon.  The campsite was free, and the fishing was good. It just doesn’t get any better than that.  There is a state park there now.  It is San Elijo State Park in Cardiff, California.

The great tent sites, back in the dunes have been bulldozed flat now so the RVs will fit on them.  The four or five families that camped there every year has become four or five thousand and there is a traffic problem in the campground.  I don’t go there anymore.

My story is about a five year old boy fishing in the surf with his father.  The accepted procedure was to wade out to about your waist and cast your bait out so it landed just beyond the first breaking wave.  My father taught me to cast sometimes before I can remember, and I was a good fisherman, (in those days you could still say the word fisherman and you wouldn’t get sued, or fired, or anything.

Early one morning, just as the sun was starting to spread its gold across the land, (all of us that didn’t have any money to spend always had the suns gold to make us rich), I hooked a fish.  Little did any of us know that it would set the entire course of my life.

I remember the fish didn’t fight very much.  I could feel he was on the line because of the jerks he managed every once in a while as I reeled him in through the surf.  I was taught to be cautious when landing any fish in the surf because the action of the water could rip a fish right off the hook.

I got the fish coming towards the shore, then I reeled as fast as I could and backed out of the water as I had seen my father do all my life.  The fish came flopping out of the water onto the sand beach, and I ran down and grabbed it.

I ran back up the beach so the next wave wouldn’t get me, and looked at my fish.  It was awesome.  I had never seen a fish that looked like this one before.  It wasn’t very big.  Perhaps 12 or 14inches, but it was so silver and bright, and such a strange shape.

It had very big eyes and they were green.  The body didn’t have scales on it like most of the fish I was used to catching, and as the sun shined on it, many colors glimmered and then disappeared.  It had a head that seemed out of proportion to the skinny tail, and a big spine that stuck up out of the back.

There was a line that ran down both sides like a lot of fish have, but this one was really easy to see.  There were spots all over the back, and as I held it in my hands it seemed to lose its color and turn more grayish.  I realized as it was dying all the beauty it had in life was evaporating like a puddle of water as it dries up.  It made me sad but my excitement at catching this stranger from the sea overcame the sadness, and I ran to show it my dad. (He became Pop later in life to everyone.)

He looked at it, scratched his head and said he didn’t have a clue as to what it was.  He had been fishing these shores all of his life, but this was a new one even for him.  He suggested we walk down the beach and talk to a man who was fishing a few hundred yards away. He might know what it was.

We waded out into the water and met Mr. Sergeant.  It is strange that I still remember his name.  When a child is excited they remember everything.  After careful examination, Mr. Sergeant said he didn’t know what it was, but he knew how we could find out.

He asked if my dad and I would like to ride over to the marine science school that was just a few miles away in La Jolla.  He said someone there was sure to know what it was.

We check with my Mom and she said it was okay with her, and off we went to the marine science school to find out about my fish.

The marine science school turned out to be Scripts Institute of Oceanography in La Jolla.  It wasn’t the big impressive campus it is today.  It only had a few building as I remember.  The place we went was a low woden building with a lot of offices off either side of a long hall.

There was a lady at a desk as we came in the door, and she greeted us with smile.  Her smile got bigger when I proudly held up my fish and asked her what it was.  She asked if that was why we were there.  Mr. Sergeant told her yes it was.

She leaned over and looked at the fish and said it was far too strange a fish for her to know, but she knew a man that would know what it was.  She picked up the phone and spoke to someone for a couple of minutes and then told us Dr. Hubbs would see us.

I walked down the hall with my dad and Mr. Sargeant to a door that had, ‘Dr. Hubbs,’ written on it.  I remember thinking he must really be important to have his name written on his door.  When we went in I saw books everywhere.  They were on the desk, on the table, and in bookcases that covered all the walls.  I was sure this man would know what my fish was.

He was very nice and talked to my dad and found out where we caught the fish and how excited I was about it.  He then turned to me and from that moment on he paid no attention to my dad or Mr.Sergeant.

He took the fish in his hands and didn’t seem to worry about getting the fish slime on his hands at all.  He looked at it for a long time.  Finally, I couldn’t wait, and I asked, “Do you know what it is?”  He could have said, a rat-fish, and we would have been out of there, but he didn’t.

He said, “No, but I know how to find out.”

He then led me to a stack of books and we started looking through them.  He didn’t just find a picture; he took me through a biological key.  We had to decide if it had scales, and what a lateral line was, and did it have rays in the fins or not.  He made me see the fish, not just look at it. At long last we discovered it was a rat-fish.  I was elated.  The book even told us all about the fish.

We said goodbye to Dr. Hubbs, and as we left he asked if he might keep the fish for the museum.  I was proud he wanted it, and was happy to leave it.  He had said it wasn’t good to eat anyway.

I stayed fascinated not only with fish but with the fact you could take any fish and find out what it was by using the right biological key.  My interest in biology dominated my school years and, twenty-five years later, I finally became marine biologist.  Dr. Hubbs never left my thoughts during all those years.

That should be the end of the story but it is not. You’ll have to read my next post in a week or so to find out why I cry when I think about this story.